so life goes on

He ended it all by saying "I just want you to know you did nothing wrong." I had to laugh because I knew exactly what I did wrong... I let him get to me.

I fell for him, and I fell hard. I told him my secrets and I blushed when he held my hand. I loved every second we spent together, and I couldn't wait for the next time I got to see him. His smile made me smile, even on my worst days. He taught me how to laugh again when I had almost forgotten how. I hoped that maybe, just maybe, this time it would work. Not only did I hope for it, I fully believed it. I allowed myself to break all my own promises for a guy.

I'm not going to sit here and blab on and on about how much I loved him and how my life will never be the same. Because thats not the case. Although I really, really, liked him, I was not in love with him. It was, however heading that way. I could feel myself falling for him and it scared me. I'm an "on my own" kinda chick. I like being alone, because I know in the end I can only count on myself. Something about him though made me doubt myself and I let myself go. I loved who I was around him. Not that he changed me, but more that he complimented me.

We worked well together. I'm not a girl who needs to be doted on and he was not a guy who doted. We did our own things, but together and I liked that about our relationship. I thought I finally met someone who fit into this crazy thing I call my life. He knew how crazy I was and liked me for it.

While all of this was running through my head, he asked the inevitable question: "Can we still be friends?" I had to laugh again, because thats all I ever wanted.